Kurse.
20. Sheffield. On me tod.
I like; decent music, horror, comedy & Disney movies. I'm a strange child who couldn't decide on a hair colour...
Have another one of my face haha. Love this new dress and how it makes my boobs look huge. Partially cos I can’t close the top of the dress, but the bottom fits perfectly. Makes me feel like a housewife. Just need someone to be a housewife for. Any volunteers? ;P
(Source: nymphie-x)
Dyed my hair a darker shade of red & re-did the black so no more roots ^_^ Don’t know why I like this photo, think it’s cos I look evil.
(Source: nymphie-x)
You know what? Talking to a friend has made me realise it’s not the sex that I want…
It’s what we had after the sex, no fear of anyone walking in, just the freedom to lay there, completely exposed and wrapped up in each other… my head on your chest, tracing your tattoos and running my fingers through your chest hair and your arms wrapped around me as we talked away our fears, our plans, the past, how we felt and what we wanted to do the next day… those were the times I felt completely at peace, the times when you properly opened up and told me your darkest secrets.
So no, I don’t miss you, not one bit, I miss what I thought we had, what everyone thought we had. I miss the idea of our perfectly happy relationship. Why did you have to change?…
Socially awkward
For some reason, I’ve been getting better at talking to new people online, usually I just shrug off anyone talking to me and try to end the conversation as quickly as possible, but i’ve been talking to some really awesome people lately, on Tumblr & Skype and it just makes me feel, nice I guess… :3
I’ve also gotten better at striking up conversations with people when I’m waiting for stuff, like getting served in bars, waiting for trains/trams and with the people I’m sat next too as well as the conductors and stuff.
Idk, its a big step for me, I just thought I’d share. :)
Half way to 40.
Heading off to Corp to celebrate my 20th birthday tomorrow (getting old) !! If any of my lovely followers are in corp for whatever reason, you should hunt me down and come wish me a happy birthday cos you’re lovely like that! :D
The smallest things
Make my day, such as the tram conductor who said I looked lovely this morning, and was then on my tram home this afternoon, he greeted me with ‘we meet again young skywalker’ and said my picture was ‘lovely and i shouldn’t be ashamed of it’ followed with a massive smile which was just heartbreaking.
Proper made my day that did, and I dont usually feel happy or accept compliments, but when he has this heartbreaker smile it’s hard not to smile back.. Awwaww.
Update; this is mah fayce. And the first stage of my coverup. So happy with how far they’ve come already, gotta wait till they’ve healed and go back for the highlights/whites to be put in and they’ll be done. :D
And no, I can’t take a serious picture :(
The jog that I do when I’m going upstairs is especially designed so my boobs don’t knock me out and my bootay bounces. Which means I have to sing the line ‘big booty bitches’ when I jog upstairs.
Thats why I’m always the last one to go upstairs…
I don’t know why, I don’t even have a nice ass. Stupid white girl. -.-
10 weeks ago today
I made the best decision of my life and got rid of the most poisonous person in my life.
The decisions I’ve made, the people I’ve met and the things I’ve done since have made me so much better and stronger as a person.
Best thing is I have a cute little tattoo on my ankle to commemorate the day I realised I have the greatest family and friends anyone could ask for, who have loved and supported me throughout everything and never once questioned my choices.
So yeah, in a way I’m glad I met you, you made me so much stronger and made me realise that I deserve so much better than you. I’m glad you’re moving on too, just makes me realise everything you said to me to was a load of bullshit, and funnily enough, it doesnt hurt. Makes me giggle at the fact I got out when I did… :)
Update.
| So, I mentioned to my mama that I wanted my collarbone tattoos covered before I go on holiday in July which then led to her raging at me for not having a job, and for 'spending money on huge things that I don't really need / can't really afford... After a few tears and finally expressing how shit they make me feel and how I've gotten really self concious of them she decided that she'd pay for me to have them done, for my birthday. |
| So stoked! Going to the studio soon, so it's an early birthday pressie. ^_^ |
| My skins clearing up, and im managing to cut down on the shitty foods/drinks i usually consume & I've already started noticing the difference. |
| My hair is still bright orange, and my fringe is getting greasy real quick -.- |
| I'm getting in touch with old friends and it feels nice. |
| So yeah, tada. |
| Oh, also, plain handcuffs are brutual (in a VERY good way) and were advertised as indestructible. Which is a lie. Believe me. |
